Monday, November 4, 2013

Falling apart....

I am tired all the time. I have a zit on my face. I get a sickly stomach after eating sometimes. My breasts are huge and I hate to wear a bra. I am farting like a man.

David got into a car accident on Halloween. He got a ticket for following too closely in heavy traffic during a rain storm.  The van will probably be totaled.

Liam has an evaluation this week for ADHD, Autism, and PDD.

Ryan is doing well on new meds. Yeah!

Too tired and bloated to type anymore!

Friday, October 18, 2013

Just one more piece

Liam has been aggressive since he could walk. ECI came in and tried to help. It worked for awhile and now it has stopped.
Liam throws toys, rips things apart, hits people, pulls hair, and bites.

I get these questions all the time -
Isn't that what a 3yo is supposed to do? --- Not to my knowledge!
Is he copying his Autistic older brother? --- No, Ryan is a loner and will only get aggressive when provoked.
Is he doing this for attention? --- Sometimes and he gets it all the way to TIME OUT!!!!

Liam went to see a psych doctor and the doctor saw ADHD and sent us to see another doctor for an evaluation for PDD, ADHD, and what ever other letters they want to put down. I am waiting on the call from evaluator to set up that appointment.

Liam's new thing is to throw the time out chair at me. It takes all my strength to not spank him.

I am not a big spanker. I do spank, but not often. As a child when I was in trouble, I had saucepans thrown at my head, car doors slammed on my fingers or legs, and told I was ugly, fat, dumb, and not worth spending time with. This abuse was handed down by my father and my mother would cry and drink another vodka tonic. 

Saturday, July 27, 2013

Happy Birthday to ME!!!!!!

Today is my last day to be 40yo.

 In 2.5 hours, I will be 41yo. LOL! Big Jump! I love getting older. People are always astonished at my age. Thanks to my parents for good genes. I would like the skinny genes next time!

My life is not what I expected it to be. I wanted to have my kids when I was in my late 20s and be retired by 40yo. That sure didn't happen. I had my kids in my late 30s and I don't work outside of the home, so retirement is not coming.

I can tell you that I wouldn't give up my life that I have now for anything. I have a great husband, who listens 80% of the time to me, and 2 great sons.

I get some questions asked to me all the time, so I thought I would answer them all in one place.

Do I ever wish I had a daughter? Sure do, but girls are expensive.

Would I cure Ryan of Autism if given the chance? I would miss the pure moments, but I would love to take away any strife or pain from him. Ryan knows no different, but I do. I have been bullied and no kid should have to go through that.

Why don't you work? I Stay At Home because it saves my family money. If I worked, my check would be eaten up with daycare costs and what job would let me off when Ryan or Liam are sick. Ryan was sick for the whole month of March. We only have one car and I don't drive. I would have to pay someone else to drive me. David's schedule changes every day and he could get called in for overtime at a moments notice.

Sunday, June 9, 2013

Is it June already?

Ryan has finished her first complete year of school. Yeah! He had some rough days and some SICK days, but we made it. Ryan learned to read simple books, he learned his age, he learned where he lived, and he is potty training. Ryan will be going to school during the summer, so his regression will be at a minimum.

Liam is going to see a psych doctor for his fears of bugs. He won't walk on the ground if he sees a bug. He will scream and jump around. He will talk about monsters and such coming to get him. He wakes up in the middle of the night talking about monsters and won't go back to bed until we kill them all. Shadows and reflections at night bother him. Liam will also be seeing an ENT if he gets one more ear infection.

David is working hard and hoping for a raise soon. I am looking into going back to college for a Bachelors. There are so many hoops to jump through. I have been approached about being a para.Transportation and a babysitter for the kids are what is holding me back. I guess I need a nanny. LOL!!!

David turns 37 years old in less than 2 weeks. He doesn't like aging. LOL!

Saturday, April 6, 2013

I will try and do better

Is it already April? Boy has time flown.

Liam is 2.5yo now and boy is he giving me a run for my money. He goes and goes and goes. He is a lady killer and loves attention. He wants to do construction with Daddy. He wants to work with Mommy. Work is drawing, cut and pasting, and preschool stuff like Ryan. He so looks up to Ryan.

Ryan has been doing real well in school. He is reading beginner books and my facebook page. Ryan was sick from March 4th - March 28th. Ryan would throw up and/or have diarrhea every day. He would throw up 2 times and then have bad diarrhea all day or throw up 6 times and very little diarrhea. He went to 2 different ERs, He got blood drawn, stool samples done, an ultrasound, x-rays, and an IV. What did he have? Stomach flu or gastroenteritis. His pediatric gastro doctor says he has an immature gut, so sickness last longer in him than NT kids. Ryan went to school 4 days in the month of March. Ryan lost 3 pounds during this sickness. Ryan is 37 pounds and 44.5 inches tall now.

Ryan went and saw a developmental pediatrician from TX Children's Hospital Autism Center last week. I was told Ryan understands more than he speaks. I already knew this. I was told Ryan reads on a 1st grade level. Ryan can not tell you his phone number, where he lives, or button his own pants. Ryan can tell you his name, he learned that last year, and he now knows how old he is. He can count to 100 and know all the letters and their sounds. He can count in Spanish and use some sign language. Since there is such a wide difference in his skills and he shows many atypical behaviors the doctor said that Ryan has mild/moderate Autism. I will get my final notes in a couple of weeks.Ryan will get some genetic testing done soon and he needs to get some more physical and occupational therapy evaluations done.

Ryan has issues taken meds, so when his doctors RX him new stuff, I have to learn where to sneak it in. Ryan is supposed to take a vitamin, Abilfy, Melatonin, fiber, and probiotics. This doesn't happen every day.

David is doing well at work and working hard. He really likes his job and the people he works with. He hates the drive. David borrowed some tools from a friend's husband and made us a bed frame for our bed. He is going to make shelves, desks, and Ryan a bed frame soon.

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

2013 is here!

We are on to new things in 2013.

David is still working for the State. He loves his job, but hates the commute.

The boys have been sick this past week and David has been at work. No one has come by to help out. If someone came by it was because they wanted to bitch or because they wanted something. I am not going to ask for help. It would be nice if someone came over and said, "Leslie go take a bath. i got the kids!" My friends and in-laws say they will do this, but never follow through. We moved 2 hours away from his job because people said they were going to miss the boys and would help me out.

I told all friends and family about 15 days ago, that I would need help with the boys during Ryan's winter break and no one has come over. It is real sad.

The question is when do we move closer to David's job?

Liam is 2yo and weighs 29 pounds. He is 31.5 inches tall. He loves to climb and destroy things. He likes to help cook and do laundry. Liam will probably be out of ECI soon. He has a speech evaluation on the 11th to see where he is at. Liam likes to throw toys and test limits.

Ryan is 5yo and loves school on most days. He is not having anything to do with potty training. He is 47 pounds and 3ft. 8inches tall. Ryan is smart and is copying language every day. He is learning to play with others. He is fighting with his brother, mainly pushing and hitting. Ryan would sit on the couch and play on the iPad all day if I let him.

Ryan is going full day to his PPCD class. He is fighting their strict schedule. I guess having easy going parents with no schedule doesn't help. It is hard to develop a schedule when you haven't had one for years. Ryan has been sick 2 times this school year already. The ped is going to check his blood for some answers, we have to wait until he is well though. Ugh!

One of my best friends is moving out of state with her new family and friends in a few months. I wish her lots of luck. I need to get my will done soon because she will be the boys guardian if something happens to David and I.

I am doing okay. I am sick and have a bad cough. My teeth seem to hurt a lot. I have no money and no insurance. I am upset and depressed that no one comes and visits me and the boys. It makes me re-evaluate my friendship with them.

2013 -
I want to move.
I want to lose 100 pounds.
I want Liam and Ryan potty trained.
I want to have a strong and loving marriage with David.
I want Ryan to eat different foods that he hasn't had before.
I want to learn how to live by a schedule.